ramadhan :)

hahaha..lupa plk nk citer ..dh masuk hari ke 2 ramadhan..ramadhan datang lagi..hopefully tahun ni  lbh2 baik lagi dr yg lepas2..tp teruknya tahun ni melepek mcm bdk kecik bru blajaq posa..sebab x boleh tahan dahaga and sb dehydration asyik buang air,,hahahah... kalau sblm2 ni sebuk dh htr baju raya sb tkut xde tailor nk amek lg..tp thn ni..1 helai kain pon aku tak hantar kat mana2 tailor...hahah..bior betul??/ selalu 7 pasang msti dh hntar dh cukup tuk beraya seminggu..hahah..hmm...entahlah..tahun ni agak bengong sket.. nak pi cari baju jualan murah je nanti..kalau sempat :) apa pun semoga ramadhan kali ini yg terbaik untukku..InsyaAllah :)

confused?

How confusing it is..can a friendship turn 2b love or a love 2b friendship, or is it both moving in the same way? A relation started about 7 years ago if i'm not mistaken, met once,  lost contact 4 about some times until finally we met again this year...tho without seeing faces or eyes 2 eyes meeting..the feeling never dies (as i thought so n feel ) but however now the situation is totally different.. with title change , how can i pursue with the relation, though we r still using the same road i could not deny the fact that he has to stop somewhere along the way and i could not and should never be the obstacle to stop him. Though it's not his choice, but he might not b able 2 walk with me towards the end. And do i really save the room in my heart for him, that i could not b sure.. WHY? bcos im more afraid 2b dejected and rejected..again.. i dont want to be the thorn that will prick and hurt another soul of my own... but at the same time i could resist the feeling i have since i knew him long ago before she did.. and why only now he has the guts 2 ask me my feelings when things has change? and what abt himself..though he said love i still could not see it as 'love' as he keep saying, he loves me as a friend .....  :( and me??? do i love him????

its not so exciting..:)

hmmm...haven't been here for months as im trying to adapt my new life in new place. well, no doubt there are  big difference in every single way of how things work, some r good, some are ok..but of course the sakit hati part always turn up hahahah... but being me and the maturity that time has built me with help me go through the situations pretty well..in my own eyes of course..i don want to think about how others think about me..sepatah kata abg Jem ~ ADA AKU K?? hahahaha

2011 almost over?!

pejam celik pejam celik, 2011 is almost over, hmm.. 2012 is creeping not too slow..and guess what, next year im going 2 meet new colleagues, new faces, new kids, new trend of working, new circle of people cos im transfering 2 a new work place :)..which i was hoping n wishing for so much!! :) *joget*joget* haha,
well..it is unbelievable at 1st cos im not expecting it after all that been said, anyway its a good sustainance from ALLAH, who knows life wud b better :) ..however im gonna miss my dear friends at the previous place, may they would be blessed n always be happy .. im leaving 4 good after spending 9 years there and hopefully thing will turn out well 4 me
mood: happy, sad, anxious... :)

back again..

its been a while..:) kind of forgot actually tht i have a blog..hahahah..so teruk laa..apart from that was quite busy with work..one after another came rolling in..haiishh...so grabbed all the free time 2 have rest..the nicest rest is alwaysss sleeeeepppppp!!!! hahaha..love sleeping so much.. and not forgetting the stress tht came along with the work..and to overcome tht...baking and cooking!..love those 2 very much!!! :)pictures will b uploaded soon :)

hehehe :)

haha..dont know why suddenly i like him..just bcos his character in the drama 'sassy girl-chung hyang' :)

Delightful Girl Choon hyang OST - izi - Ee mi geu daen/ My love for her

this is him :)

korean drama??

well , when people were busy talking abt korean drama and how fun and nice they are..i had never been bothered to be among the circle. it was long ago, when i was a great fan of a few japanese drama such as rin hanekoma and the 1 tht i cudnt remember the title.. however last december a friend provoked me by handing me a CD and to watch ths korean drama called 'sassy girl-chung hyang'.. i didnt watch it until last week when i was getting so bored wth work. it had been in the drawer ever since. well, wht can i say abt it?? nice, fun, interesting but what attract me most was the character of the CEO - Chairman Byun and im loving him tht instance..hahahah.. crazy i can say..but there's sumthg abt the character tht tied my heart to him..but 4 sure la can just love him from a far..hahah.. not bcos of him being rich in tht drama but how he carried himself as a man.. :)

new year..

hmm..been busy..not sure how..but busy is the easiest word to say..hahah. didnt drop anythg here since the new year came..myb bcos my emotions, moods and spirits aren't so enthusiast..all slowly crept away of my life..haaiishhh..wht's happening 2 me?
need to get all those things running back to me...need 2 heal myself! go 4 it!! :)

nak pindah gak!

hmm...mmg geram btul la kat mak cik tu sb x luluskan tuk aku pindah...alasan pegang jwtn pnting....eleeh..bkn jwtn hakiki pun..dia mna blh sekat aku...aku dah le xde mood nk hadap muka dia...dia x pasan ker..aku dok lari2 bila dia ada..
bkn apa yg dokk lari tu tp xblh mmg nk tgk muka dia..takut ilang sabor and tkt menyampah makin banyak ..bab tu la..huhuhu
sblm dosa tambah bnyak..baik aku x tgk muka dia..kot x nti hati aku jd jahat asyik dok nak benci kat dia...
ikutkan xde la nk pindah sgt sb sronok kwn2 kt situ..tp ..nak pindah gakkkk..slagi dia ada supaya mengurangkan penambahan dosa ..hahahhahaha

getting bored..

hmm..its been long that i haven't had time to be here..not tht time is the problem but getting bored of whats happening around and tht makes me lost interest to write anything here..dialog2 p ramlee dalam filem2nya sedikit sebanyak dapat menzahirkan apa yg di rasa..contohnya.. meminjam dialog Kassim Selamat kepada Mak Dara dlm Ibu Mertuaku scene di kubur ~ " Kenapalah Allah jadikan kao manusia, kenapa tidak saja kau di jadikan haiwan!!!!" ......"Alllllaaaahhhh! Kassiimmmmm!!!! ( haahahah..betul ke dialog tuh? Ahhhh! hentam sajalah Labu!! yg penting itulah perasaannya...
kenapa la ada org mcm tu kat dunia kecik aku skrg ni... nak melawan mulut, nti jd kurang hajar..mak aku x ajar aku jd kurang ajar..tp cara dia mmg menyebabkan org hilang sabar dan boleh jd kurang ajar...haii..entahlahh...manusia..manusia!

syawal datang lagi..

pejam celik pejam celik dah pun nak raya..macam2 plk yang nak di beli, nak dibayar..duit keluar mcm air hujan...kalau boleh ditadah balik takper..ni org lain la yg tadah..huhuu...masa ni la mesin basuh rosak, mcm2 nak di ganti, hmm..xperlah..asal kan mak happy..tht make me happy even jenuh gak nk pikir mcmna nk settle..huuuhuhu..
xper..bila lg nk gembirakan mak..masa dia ada ni la..xperla..berkorban ..kita pun entah lama ke tak hidup kat dunia ni..x semestinya muda lambat mati...ishh..ckp pasal mati plk..mcm la dh cukup sgt amalannya..huhuhu...tapi harus ingat mati supaya sentiasa bersyukur dengan nikmat hidup yang Allah bagi.. :)supaya aku tak jadi org yang lupa diri..

againn??!!

I just couldn't believe that its happening all over again! it seems so wonderful at first and flows on well. started to believe all the words..though was full of doubts in the beginning. felt foolish.i couldn't decide anymore, which is true and which are lies??? why on earth it has to happen that way?? is it my fault or they are really frauds ..and they are just around me until it is hard to identify which and which. they came with all different "creative" stories and then all come to the same reason.friendship or relationship is being put at stake and no longer given with honesty. all came with their own hidden agenda...
its time to move on! another "love" story is going to an end...
sometimes not being together with anyone is the best peaceful moment you can ever get!..

Marhaban Ya..Ramadhan...

Ramadhan datang lagi..semoga tahun ini aku akan melakukan dengan lebih baik dari yang sebelum-sebelumnya. this year nampaknya kena bersederhana..bukanlah yang selalu tu pun berlebih-lebih..heheh..cuma kena lebih berjimat..dgn mcm2 problem kewangan muncul...if not i cant make my trip to Perlis!hahah..rindu nak pi sana jumpa kawan2 lama,rindu nak makan makanan yg sedap2 tuh..teringat jek dah terbayang sedapnya..heheh..aduhai posa2 ni sebut pasal makanan lakss..hahahah, rindu nak jalan2 kat pekan padang besar mcm dulu, kenyit2 mata kat abang2 kastam, imigresen n polis ( hahaha, ckp jek x pernah buat punn!! takuuttt!)
anyway, just want to trace back the memory lane..sambil2 nak shopping barang2 murah kat sana..hmm..are they still at lower prices????hahaha..and planned to hop from states to states..hahaha..kalau ada rejeki..insyaAllah...

when heart fills with doubt...

when our heart fill with doubt, how can we see the truth? which is which? whether to chew it on or let it pass? being lied to most of the times put us in the stage of doubtful thoughts. but people always say try to take benefits of the doubts. Haiisshh!..susah kan.percaya ke tak? kalau pecaya takut terkena lg..kalau tak pecaya, who knows..mybe inilah peluangnya.percaya pada instinct? sometimes bila dh dikelabui kata2 indah instict pun blh lari.. percaya qadha dan qadar..itu wajib..kalau dh Allah kata bukan and tidak..maka bukan dan tidak akan jadilah..cuma kita boleh berdoa dan berusaha.tp kalau semuanya sudah, doa sudah, usaha sudah, istiqamah sudah tapi masih belum nak jadi jg..kenalah redha atas ketentuanNYA. kerna DIA maha mengetahui.. mungkin saja perancangan yang lebih baik telah diatur untuk kita..tapi bukankah pertemuan itu adalah salah satu dari perancanganNYA.. Ya Allah..semoga KAU permudahkan bagi kami jalannya, satukanlah hati kami dalam redha dan rahmatmu, jauhkanlah kami dari godaan nafsu yang menjerumuskan kami ke arah kemaksiatan..berilah petunjuk ke atas kami. sesungguhnya YA ALLAH, KAU maha pemurah dan pengasih, maha segala-galanya. Amin Ya rabbal alamin.

hard to understand...

is it me..or is it actually them? tried to understand but somehow it isn't easy. when a person comes to your life , they brought along their own attitude..adapting to the situation, whether we can get along..if it is..then it might continue into a relationship and if not life still has to go on..
cry? well..if you have to..just do it...but don't waste time mourning days and nights...when something you wished for doesn't happen..perhaps HE planned something better for us..just be strong and stand strong...only we can make the decision to take a step forward or back ...

tired...

tiring days, weeks and month..sacrifices made..raging heart..
but some how..dalam keterpaksaan perlu redha..
hopefully semuanya akan di berkati..dan semoga kejayaan di miliki...insyallah

HOW TO BE A GOOD LEADER - has she done these?

• Remember: leadership skills and techniques can be learned. You don't have to be a natural leader. Very few people are.
• Care for your team. That means knowing what matters to each member: their health, their partner, their children, their relatives, their interests, their hopes, their fears.
• Stay close to your team. At some point, every day, walk around the office and say "Hi" to everyone who works for you. If you're not in the office that day, call and see how people are. This gives you a chance to enquire or encourage and gives them an opportunity to raise issues or make suggestions.
• Meet your team. Regularly - daily, weekly or monthly, depending on your place and type of work - have meetings of all the members of the team. Keep these meetings short, focused and action-orientated. Make sure every member of the team contributes in some way and acknowledge that.
• Train your team. Every team member should have at least two days training a year. Newer and more senior colleagues should have more. If they don't ask to go on training sessions, suggest some suitable courses.
• Grow your team. Through varied experience and regular training, you should be developing each team member to be more and more confident and more skilled.
• Inspire your team. Consider making available a motivational quote or story every week or month [for lots of good quotes click here].
• Celebrate with your team. This might be a personal event, such as a member's birthday or anniversary, or a professional occasion, such as completing a project or winning oa contract.
• Socialise with your team. Have lunch or an after-work drink with them, especially when a member has a birthday or there's another reason to celebrate.
• Set objectives for each team member. As far as possible, these objective such be SMART - Specific Measurable Achievable Resourced Timed.
• Review the performance of each team member. At least once a year - at least quarterly for the first year of a new team member - have a review session where you assess performance, give feed-back and agree future objectives and training.
• Thank constantly. The words "Thank you" take seconds to say, but mean so much.
• Praise constantly. The words "Well done" take seconds to say, but will be long remembered and appreciated.
• Communicate constantly. Don't assume that people know what you're doing, still less what you are planning or thinking. Tell them, using all the communication tools to hand: team briefings, electronic newsletters, organisational newspapers.
• Eliminate. Too often we do things because they've always been done. Life changes. Consider whether you could stop doing certain things altogether.
• Delegate. You don't have to do everything. Develop your team members by training them to do more and trusting them to take over some of the things you've been doing.
• Empower. A really effective leader sets clear objectives for his team members, but leaves detailed implementation of these objectives to the discretion and judgement of individual members of the team. As Second World War U.S. General George S. Patton put it: "Don't tell people how to do things. Tell them what to do and let them surprise you with their results”.
• Facilitate. A confident leader does not try to micro-manage his team, but makes it clear that, if team members need advice or assistance, he is always there to facilitate and support.
• Be on time. Always start meetings on time and finish them on time. Natural breaks keep people fresh. Short meetings concentrate the mind.
• Be seen. Don't just talk the talk, but walk the walk. So visit each unit or department for which you are responsible on a regular basis. Don't do this unannounced - you are not out to undermine other leaders or catch out staff. So arrange with the unit leader or departmental head when you'll visit and ask him or her to walk round with you.
• Make time. Managers are often very busy and this can deter people from approaching you, so make time for people and be approachable. People will appreciate you taking five minutes out of your busy schedule, especially if you act on/listen to what they say.
• Really listen. Many of us - especially those who think they are important - don't really listen, but instead think about what they're going to say next. Give the person speaking to you your full attention and really take on board what they are saying. [For more detailed advice on listening click here]
• Accept honest criticism. Criticism is hard to take, particularly from a relative, a friend, an acquaintance or a stranger - but it's a powerful tool of learning. Above all, assess criticism on merit, without regard to its originator.
• Think strategically. The doers cut a path through the jungle; the managers are behind them sharpening the machetes; the leaders find time to think, climb the nearest tree, and shout "Wrong jungle!" Find time to climb the trees.
• Have a mentor or buddy, someone doing similar work in the same or a similar organisation with whom you can regularly and frankly discuss your progress and your problems as a leader.
• Have a role model, someone who can inspire you to be a truly great leader. If you can't find one, study Jed Bartlet as the American President in any episode of the television series "The West Wing".
• Constantly revisit and review these tips. In his seminal work, "The Seven Habits Of Highly Effective People", Stephen Covey puts it this way: "Sharpen the saw".
• Plan your succession. You won't be there forever and you may not be in control of the timing and circumstances of your departure. So start now to mentor and train at least one colleague who could take over from you.

ROGER DARLINGTON

the magic of giving happiness..

visiting a friend at the General Hospital today who met with an accident on Sunday and her condition is quite bad. seeing me approaching or anyone who came to visit her make her cries..but we know deep down she's happy to see us..and its felt strange but contented that giving her the happiness makes me feel happy as well..the feeling seep down inside..

headache..

too many works need 2 be done this month..and im not feeling so well...just hope i could cope with everything and settle them as scheduled. only determination moves me..if not..i guess i would have collapse..hahah..but the job comes in a package and these are parts of it...redha je la..:) whts important kena selalu ikhlaskan hati, barula blh buat keje dgn gumbira..ha..ha..ha..